Mandy Moore attends the premiere of Peacock’s “Dr. Death” Season 2 at Pacific Design Center on December 14, 2023 in West Hollywood, California.Photo:Matt Winkelmeyer/GA/The Hollywood Reporter via Getty Images
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Mandy Mooreis looking back on her decision to get married “very young” at the age of 24.
TheThis Is Usalum, 39, revealed how her own parents’ relationship influenced her to marry first husband, rocker Ryan Adams, in 2009. The pair split in 2015 andofficially divorcedin 2016.
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TheDr. Deathstar added that it seemed like “a perfectly appropriate time to get married and focus on this very personal, quiet chapter in my life and ultimately like, it just left me in a really hollow, empty, isolated place.”
“It’s so weird because I think back to that chapter and it almost feels like it was someone else entirely that it happened to because I’m in such a different place in my life, and I’m married and I have children,” she shared. “And it’s almost like how did I ever do that? How did I ever find myself in that place where I allowed myself to be treated that way that I viewed myself that way?”
“The feeling of belittling yourself or making yourself as small as possible to make others around you feel as comfortable as possible was something that started obviously at a young age for me and continued through that very unhealthy relationship that I was in,” she continued.
Moore said that she feels like that experience happened to “an entirely different person [that] I don’t recognize, I don’t relate to it all.”
“I can’t even put myself in those shoes again, it’s strange,” she added. “I’m so grateful for that experience. I’m grateful for all it taught me and where it brought me and ultimately it led me to finding this incredible partner.”
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This is not the first time that Moore has opened up about her experience being married to Adams. In a 2019New York Timesstory, she wasamong seven women who accused Adamsof being manipulative, controlling and obsessive.
Moore told theNYTthat her ex-husband took charge of her music career in 2010 three years after they first met when she was 23. She claimed he “discouraged” her from working with other producers and managers, but after writing songs together, Adams would “replace her with other female artists” when it came time to record the tracks.
She also said he was “psychologically abusive” and belittled her musical abilities. “His controlling behavior essentially did block my ability to make new connections in the industry during a very pivotal and potentially lucrative time — my entire mid-to-late 20s,” Moore told theTimes.
At the time, Adams denied Moore’s claims via his lawyer Andrew B. Brettler, saying her “characterization” of their relationship is “completely inconsistent with his view.”
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The same year that her divorce was finalized, Moore exclusivelyspoke with PEOPLEabout her six-year marriage and moving on after a painful divorce. “My story deviated in a different direction than I expected,” Moore said of her split. “But ultimately, life is about being happy and fulfilled and sometimes that means making hard choices.”
Through it all, she tried not to wallow in the pain.
“There are moments of being curled up in a ball on the floor,” Moore admitted. “It’s really hard. But I’ve moved on and progressed in the stages of grief and being angry and feeling the loss and all that. I do believe things happen for a reason. And I think I had that mantra moving through the trying times.”
source: people.com
